there is only one person i really could sit down with and just bawl my eyes out and they wouldn’t judge me. but they aren’t in my life anymore. and its the worst feeling just keeping myself all contained and bottled up all the time.
i can’t sleep so i smoke, i go out when i smoke. when i go out, I’m not at home with my family, which means their upset. Now that I’ve developed a distant relationship with my family, and surround myself with people full of cold personalities and instigated escape goats for all types of hallucinogens. I’ve never just sat down and just analyzed my life. Until now. And i don’t know right from left
i don’t think i have ever felt this alone. nobody should ever have to feel like this